As a dancer, I use movement to express my emotions. About a year ago today, I was definitely struggling mentally to stay afloat. I was overwhelmed with recurring emotions and depression that I could not shake. Being the person I am and not wanting to drown my friends in the state I was in, not even my closes friends knew how bad it was. But holding in something so negatively powerful became too much, and I thought… if I can’t verbally tell anyone how I’m feeling, why not just choreograph a piece? Thus beginning the creation of my piece “Recurring” a solo I choreographed on myself. I premiered the solo in the spring of 2013 at my school’s student choreography show, DMPP. The solo consist of three sections divided by three Sigur Ros songs. The first two sections of the solo express the agitation, the sadness, the complications, the depression, the yearning for a better life, and most importantly my journey. The third and final section of the piece portrays hope and what I imagine life would be like once I overcome the state I was in.
After I performed the solo at the DMPP show, I was asked by my professors that I take this solo to The American College Dance Festival in March of 2014 to be adjudicated as well as to represent the dance department of Towson University. It was interesting to revisit this solo one year later… because by no means am I currently in the state that I was in before. I overcame the battles that I was facing and I am now experiencing the life I had hoped for in the third section of my piece. I dance my solo tonight in celebration of life, peace, and happiness. I am so thankful and blessed for the people that are in my life now and the journey that I’m heading on.